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Monday
Dec032012

The Motto...

I've had this blog for a while. A long while. I've made and deleted a few posts because they just didn't feel right, but now I realize that I'm just out of practice & I'll eventually get the hang of blogging again. 

I don't mind saying that I am now in therapy (my therapist would probably tell me to keep that private, but I think other people should know about the fantastic health benefits of it all), and while it wasn't really necessary for me to "enroll" or whatever you call it, I can say it's the best thing I've done for myself in a while. The clarity I've gained is well worth the time and money. I needed this clarity in order to build a life. 

I'm starting my new year now, a month ahead of time, because I'm tired of waiting. I don't know if that makes sense, really, but I know what I mean. I've done a lot of waiting. My attitude and plans have changed, or rather, they've begun to form on their own without my consent. And let's face it, I only fuck things up when I try to control them too tightly. I think exciting things are going to happen... after I put in some revived effort and trust myself a little more.  

I feel pretty good. There are bad days, but I feel really hopeful. I feel confident. I even cussed out another parent in the drop-off line at my kid's school today... I am finally regrowing my balls: I mean, I was mumbling mean things from the inside of my locked car, but whatever. 

DirtyFlowerGirl is back. Watch your ass, world!

Listening to:
Drake: The Motto
Bob Marley: Three Little Birds

Mood:
Sha-zam! YOLO!

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